I am not an easy follower. I have a hard time with authority. It is not natural for me to follow. I have heard the sermons and read the books on spiritual authority and I get it in my head but like so many things, it has a tough time dropping 12 inches into my heart. These last few weeks God has been dealing with me in this area…when I say dealing with me I mean he has been kicking my butt all over the place. That is the thing with shifting personality or perspective it takes time and often times is tough. However, God is stretching me and in a way it is releasing me from some of the things that I have burdened myself with. I serve with great pastors but I am simply ONE of them. I answer to an Executive Pastor, Steve Stahl who oversees staff relations and volunteer coordination and ultimately I answer to Cal Woods, our senior pastor. This church is a vision given by God to him and he in turn guides my vision for the youth ministry. Now, where my issue is when I think I know everything or even simply more than that of those who lead me…I tend to get snippy and disrespectful. That is something God is purging from my soul. I answer to the staff and to God for what I have been called to do.
Cal is leading this church into some really special but significant changes in the coming months and I am behind him in prayer, vision but most importantly in followship. I will follow him because he is my pastor and I am his associate.
I encourage all you youth pastors out there to pray and seek God’s heart in this issue because failure to do so will only lead to bitterness, anger and job changes every 2-4 years.
Sean Rheaume 
your message at the service for tony barwick was so appreciated